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M I D S O M M A R

the end of desolation and the rebirth of pain

thistle and burr
the confines of fear
patch up your tapestry
defiant to the end
with my eyes wide open
a room full of ghosts
another star fell
i never think about you
the stone below the water
it's all in your goodbyes
lonely as death
my sense of wonder
conspiring by candlelight
something left to save
thistle and burr the confines of fear patch up your tapestry defiant to the end with my eyes wide open a room full of ghosts another star fell i never think about you the stone below the water it's all in your goodbyes lonely as death my sense of wonder conspiring by candlelight something left to save

Midsommar as a collection is about relearning how to feel pain. suffering is part of the human experience, but so much of the way we suffer is learned, self-inflicted, or repeated trauma. the “rebirth of pain” mentioned in my series is about finding a new season of feeling.

this doesn’t mean an absence of suffering, but instead learning to experience it as a new season each time— one that will melt away when your summer comes. renewal isn’t about erasing, it’s about being gentle with yourself again as if experiencing emotions for the first time.

the way that ‘Midsommar’ invites you to step into someone else’s dreams, to see their memories as your own, like events that could have happened but you can’t tell who they happened to… this is the way to view our old selves. over and over again, we are made new in our minds.

 

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thistle and burr
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the confines of fear
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patch up your tapestry
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defiant to the end
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with my eyes wide open
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a room full of ghosts
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another star fell
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i never think about you
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the stone below the water
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it's all in your goodbyes
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lonely as death
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my sense of wonder
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conspiring by candlelight
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something left to save

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